Ok. I think I heard it. I think got it.🙂

As a matter of fact, I have been hearing just not knowing. It can be confusing sometimes. I don’t know if it is part of the scripted framework or an act of free will. That’s the clarity I have been seeking. If I am right, I think I understand it. Isn’t that reassuring? 💆🏻‍♀️🍸

You know, I actually look forward to sitting in front of the computer and writing down some thoughts. It has kept me sane through this transition. But, because it is a transition there is a lot to be determined. It can be a bit unsettling. Exciting and a little scary at the same time. Everything is up in the air. Am I going to keep living in America? Should I shut everything down? 

I have been working on this side project and it has made a lot of things click. Stopping it right now feels like dying on the beach. Although I’m not ready to share the details just yet, I’m really excited about it. I gave myself at least a year to figure things out. Hoping to take an amazing summer vacation in 2027 and maybe a cool trip during spring break. Visit home? Europe?

I do know I am excited about my trip to San Francisco. I haven’t seen Jei in a long time. We’ve been friends for 30 years and she is also going through some similar things. I can’t wait to see her new place, and maybe go out for a bit of an early birthday fun. I’m going to take her to SFMOMA because that is the only way her sorry ass goes there. But there is no way she is taking me pole dancing. That is where I draw the line.

I guess those are the words that keep coming back. Excited, exciting. I’m just going to keep on trying new things. Walk through some doors and see what happens. When I feel fear creeping in, I ask myself: why am I feeling that way and what is it trying to show me? Is it some sort of lesson I have been skipping, some fact I have been avoiding facing, or some old belief system that has yet to be reformatted? What’s the challenge?

While I don’t have all the answers I will keep trusting my intuition hoping that it will guide me towards what is best for me.